It has been 7 months since I have even logged into my blog here. Aside from the fact that there is nothing new to read, I had to face an ungodly amount of comment spam awaiting moderation. I know what my problem is. I want everything I have to say on this site to either be informative, fun to read, or just push your mental buttons. The truth is that I often think of things I want to blog about but I spend hours thinking about the topic to the point that I become mentally exhausted by the subject before I have even written a single word down. So what I end up with is a teeny little blog with a few pointless ramblings about computer shit and video games.

You’d think I would be bursting with ideas for posts, given that I am now a parent, but I just fell off the blogging train and failed to ever buy a second ticket. I could spend days writing backlogged blog posts about my experiences being a daddy, but I wont. Heather does a marvelous job of blogging about Kaylee and you can read all about her ( there are pictures too ) here.

I think I should have been a graphic designer. I say this because whenever I get the idea in my head to build or redesign a site I throw myself into the graphic design and layout of the site, but after I am done I am pathetic about actually generating content for it. I’m not saying that I am particularly good at design or anything, I am just saying that I get fired up about doing it. I think that in general, I don’t find my job particularly rewarding as far as creativity is concerned. Don’t get me wrong, there is a ton of opportunity for creativity where software engineering is concerned, however, the subject matter is forced on you. It would be like an artist being paid to paint a picture of a flower. There are a bazillion different directions they could take, but if they aren’t excited about the subject matter it can tend to stifle the desire to jump into the work.

Anyway, the original point of this post was to basically say that I need to stop trying to create the best content I can at the expense of writing any content at all. I hope to start blogging more, even if it is all just pointless stories about the minutiae of my mundane life. I know from reading others blogs, and watching way too much youtube that that stuff can be pretty fun reading.

I‘m the new model. I’ve got nothing inside.